On April 24, 2012, when we were 16 weeks pregnant with our fifth child we discovered at an ultrasound that our baby has Anencephaly. The next day we discovered that this sweet baby was going to be our first girl! This blog is our journal of our journey with our sweet baby girl Joy.
A few months ago... ok more like five months ago, I heard a song on the radio that I loved. I had heard it before but I wanted to see if Justin had heard it so I looked it up on the computer. This time when I listened to it I was alone and had a chance to really listen to the lyrics. I just bawled. I felt like it applied to me in so many different ways. I felt like it was applicable to Joy because we had just decided that no matter what the odds were against us that we wanted to keep her with us as long as she would stay and I wouldn't give up on her. I felt just like the first paragraph of the song when I looked into her eyes. I also felt like it was applicable to Justin and I as we were growing together through this trial. Now as I read the words I still feel like it says a lot of what I am going through. Even though some days may be so different than what I ever thought I would experience, I am going to do the very best I can to find JOY in life every day. I love music. Even though the song may not be taken as the artist intended it, it can touch people a lot of different ways. Grab a tissue :) I still cry every time I read them. Here are the lyrics the song is called "I won't give up" by Jason Mraz If you want to listen to the song here is the link to the music video. When I look into your eyes It's like watching the night sky Or a beautiful sunrise Well there's so much they hold And just like them old stars I see that you've come so far To be right where you are How old is your soul?
I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space To do some navigating I'll be here patiently waiting To see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burn Some even fall to the earth We've got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use the tools and gifts We got yeah we got a lot at stake And in the end, You're still my friend at least we didn't tend For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn We had to learn, how to bend without the world caving in I had to learn what I got, and what I'm not And who I am
I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up I'm still looking up
I won't give up on us God knows I'm tough, he knows We got a lot to learn God knows we're worth it
I won't give up on us Even if the skies get rough I'm giving you all my love I'm still looking up...