Wednesday, March 20, 2013

6 Months

Six months... It has been an amazing journey so far. I do not miss her any less than I did the day I laid her to rest. My heart still aches to have my sweet daughter in my life and to feel her spirit near more often and to watch her smile after she took a breath, like she knew she would be with us for at least another minute. I am somewhat grateful for these milestones so that I have time to reflect and have an excuse to go through a box of tissues. I know that the Lord has been mindful of me. I can't imagine going through this without Him. He has eased my burden and helped me find joy to be had every day. I cannot imagine going through this without the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I am so grateful for it and for the temple. My family means everything to me. So grateful for a sweet husband who is taking me to lunch today and my sweet boys that could sense my feelings and responded with tenderness. I told Jace I was writing about Joy and he just stood here by me and kissed my arm. They know their mom has a tender spot for their sister and I love that they do too.
Happy six months to my sweet sweet Joy. We love you and miss you more than even we can comprehend.
 Jenston just wanted to be close to her. He loves her so much. And Jaxon is behind Jenston getting squished and I am sure Jace is right there by Jaden. They were all her constant onlookers. 
It will be a wonderful day when I get to see Justin gaze upon his daughter again.
Thank you to my brother and his beautiful wife for the precious pictures.


  1. So perfectly said... I love what Elder Nelson says... "to take the sorrow out of death is to take the love out of life..." Your tender heart is a manifestation of your great love for her... xoxoxo!

  2. Beautiful pictures! Thinking of you...

  3. Just watched your beautiful birth video of Joy! Tears always flow continually as I watch your sweet family move forward with faith through this trial! Know I think of you often and continue to pray for you that you may be lifted up and that your burdens can be lighter! We love you!